Dear Anyone,
My girlfriend and I broke up before the summer began since I was going out of state to work and we didn't want to worry about each other. Well, the job didn't work out and I fell more in love with her and decided to come home after 8 weeks. She had told me numerous times during the summer she only wanted to be with me. When I came back, she dumped me and got in a new relationship the night after we broke up. When we ended our thing that night, I called her every name I could think of and scared her to death with the way I was screaming and spit in her face to get her away from me because I didn't want to do anything violent, yet I was emotional. However, I apologized that night and several times since then. I knew she didn't deserve it.
Well much has happened since then. She is still with him after four months. I have made another mistake when I was drunk by calling her and threatening to harm myself; once again under the influence but that was months ago and too. I apologized the next day saying if she is happy with this guy, then its good because all I want is for her to be happy. Yet he took me outside that day and insulted not only me but her. Anyways I left her alone since that day knowing she needed to be away from me. I hit rock bottom and joined the military because I want her to be happy and will leave to do that.
As soon as I was enlisted she started contacting me saying she wanted to be friends and I commented to her that in her eyes I could see she was unhappy and that is why I was going. She said she wasn't really happy now because I wasn't in her life. This past week I dropped off the stuff she had bought me when we together for closure on my end and left them on her doorstep (including condoms and ky, yet I didn't mean to insinuate anything or cause anything, honestly). Well, I got a dirty hate mail on Sunday evening when she returned saying "stay away from me and my boyfriend and my apartment and leave me alone" and then she destroyed all the pictures she had of me on facebook. What should I do since she is confusing the crap out of me?
Confused, but can't live without her
