Dear Anyone,
The man I am interested in "W" was involved in a 3 1/2 year relationship until October 2006 when he broke up with her. I was still in a 1 year, 4 month relationship. W and myself were good friends, classmates, always there for each other. In December, W and myself were hanging out and he was taking me home when we started holding hands. I felt more from this than anything I felt the whole time I was with my boyfriend. When W took me home, he kissed me and it was truly the most amazing kiss ever. After that night, I knew W was who I wanted and I had to get out of my unhappy relationship. W and myself began seeing each other more, we began sleeping together, and we began trying to get to know each other as much as possible. Everything went right and I wanted more with W (still hadn't ended the other relationship at this point). In January or February 2007, W asked me out on a "real" date and not one of those "let's hang out" friend type of dates. I had been seeing him for a little while now and was so nervous and excited to go on a real date with him. It was amazing. The chemistry between us was incredible and I had so much fun. Since we had been sleeping together for a while, he stayed at my house and we just fell asleep. The next night after the "real date" I was at his house studying (we're classmates in school). When it was time for bed, we went to bed and began to have sex. Something weird happened in my head. I still can't explain it but it's somewhere along the "oh no - I'm just going to get hurt" feelings. I spazzed out. I threw him off me, got dressed, and left. This completely threw him off and to this day I feel horrible about it. The next day when we spoke again, he said he was very hurt by my actions and had to take a step back because I wasn't ready to be dating yet. I cried and cried and FINALLY ended my miserable relationship that I was hanging onto and shouldn't have been. I had to make things work with W. A couple weeks went by and W an I were back to holding hands, sleeping together, hanging out every night. This was around late February-early March at this point. Things went well for a while, but he never asked me on a "real" date again. He would act like my boyfriend, but not in public. One night, I confronted him about this and he said he didn't want to get hurt and the night I left him like that made him realize how scared of a serious relationship he really is. He thought that I would just hurt him again. I assured him I was just being stupid that night and I told him I wanted a chance to prove how much I really wanted this. So everything was normal with us again: acting like a relationship but not in public. Around early April, I was so frustrated with trying and trying to get him to ask me out again and I was having a lot of other personal problems in my life. He kept saying that I worry too much and shouldn't rush him. He told me that he really likes me and would love to get to the point that we were at the night before I left but that it would take time because he still feels scared. We had our ups and downs but through it all, we remained friends (and a little bit more too, just not in public). He said he's happy with me and that he just wants things to be normal with us again. I told him I just want to be asked out on a date and for him to maybe hold my hand or kiss me in public and not try and hide things. He just kept saying that if I don't worry about things and don't rush things, that things will turn out the way they're supposed to. This was 3 weeks ago. Now, we're still sleeping together, still hanging out every night, still talk several times a day, and he still hasn't asked me on a date. I'm ready for more and I really want to be with W. I know we were friends-with-more and it led to a date and would have led to more if I hadn't been stupid and left that night. So I guess my question is, what can I do to re-light the spark there so we can reach that point again? How can I assure him that wanting more with me is a good thing? Is there anything I can do to be with W? I know we were in this situation once and it led to him wanting more from me...can it happen again? He says he really likes me and would love for something more to come out of this. Should I just wait it out?
Got it bad for this one,
