My boyfriend and myself have been going out for almost a year and a half. We got into a huge argument and he broke up with me over a dumb misunderstanding. He treated me bad, and was been basically an a-hole for a month. I went on vacation and then when I returned he was begging to get back with me. So we did, we got back together, he is been good to me now, and he has been showing me that he cares a lot for me. He has been my one and only serious everything relationship if you know what I mean. At school however I met a guy and he seems interested in me. He is really nice, we talk a lot and he keeps the flirting. But I would never think of cheating on my boyfriend. That is the last thing I would ever do. He just hurt me so bad during that break up and now I am so confused because his possessiveness and jealousy and everything drove me insane. I couldn't have any friends, couldn't go out with them either, but after that time that he didn't hear from me, he came to me once again to speak with me. He changed he is different and he is more understanding, but the pain he caused me it is still there, that I don't know what to do. I care for him a lot but the love in the relationship, he killed with his remarks and his hurtful actions towards me during the break up. I know he was proud and I am so confused. I know its either one or the other, but I wish I could at least have the other as a friend. I don't know what to do. He has been the only boyfriend I have really had. He has played a huge impact in my life, but I am not sure whether I love him after that incident.
confused, do i brake up or live a lie