I met this guy at my university almost 2 years ago. It was attraction at first sight for me. It started as a crush but developed into really strong feelings. We started dating casually after knowing each other for a few months because he wasn't ready for commitment. Mind you, I'm guessing that he didn't want to get serious because of my history as a player. After 6 months of dating, I ended things because I got tired. Now, I'm regretting my decision because I've realised how much I love him and I regret proving him right that I'm a player who's not into commitment. We're pretty good friends now and the more I get to know him, the harder I fall. The problem is, I don't think he knows I'm still into him and I don't think he'll ever trust me again in that way.
crying in silence