I ended my 4 year off and on relationship a month and a half ago mutually for difference in life goals. For a month we continued to hang out and have physical contact. He recently went to Germany for 3 weeks and is coming back today. I met someone while he was gone. This new guy is everything I wanted in a man that would make me happy, except he is unhappily married with a new child. We met at a bar and had an instant connection. I somehow developed instant feelings for him and we had an amazing night together. We decided not to exchange numbers due to his situation but that he knew where to find me if "Anything changes." The ex has been emailing me while overseas and has expressed how much he misses me and that we may need to reevaluate ourselves. I found myself incredibly depressed because I haven't seen the married man since and I've prayed for him to find me. I love my ex but we weren't right for each other specifically I am affectionate and he was not. I don't know what to do.
Potentially happy with a man that I can't have