Dear Anyone,
For the most part I consider myself to be a very optimistic person. However, lately my optimism has been running thin. Maybe it's because I've been working more hours. Maybe it's because I'm busy and I just barely have time to do the grocery shopping. Maybe it's just because my destiny is finally catching up with me. I am so tired of being alone. I haven't been in a meaningful relationship in 2 years. I miss coming home to someone and fixing dinner for us, sharing the day's events with him, then eventually retiring to bed together. I miss having someone here.
I'm a single mom of one absolutely magnificent son, but damn it, I miss the companionship and love that two grown people share.
Is this really my destiny? Everyone around me is with someone, or getting married, or just getting into a relationship.. I mean, I'm happy for them, but then I think, what about me? I'm a good person. I'm a hard working, loving person. Don't I deserve to be happy too?
I'm just so lonely it hurts right now. But in a minute, I'll get over it. Shove it right back into my psyche so that I can take care of my son and the various things around the house that need to be taken care of.
I don't know what it is I may receive from this, guess I just needed a shoulder to cry on. Man, I must sound so pathetic.
Hope