Dear Anyone,
About a year ago my 3 year relationship ended. She was my first love, my first everything. When we met I was 17 and she was 16, so we practically grew up together. Things were so perfect until as our 3 year anniversary approached she began to stay out late, until 6 am sometimes. She kept saying she was out with friends, so I just tried to let her have her freedom. I later learned that she was sleeping with a co-worker. What hurts most is that we were already moving into a house of our own and beginning our life together. I felt so betrayed. Now she's with a 40 year-old woman who has children who are around my ex's age!
Since then I've met this amazing woman. She cooks for me and she's so caring. We have everything in common and have now been together for 9 months, living together for about eight. I love her and think she's so beautiful. But this woman admitted to going to see her ex girlfriend and kissing her while I was at work and she never seems to lust after me. To complicate things further, I've never fully let my ex go. We still talk from time to time and she says that she regrets so much, misses me and cries for me. I find myself missing her too. So at this moment in my life I feel I must choose between my past love and my new one. It's hard because I feel like my first love will always be a part of me. Like we have this connection. The only bad memory is remembering what caused us to break up in the first place. I can't get past that..
confused and dazed