I've been used by guys so many times. Many are my lovers, some are friends, some I don't even know them but they message me on my phone. But they all are the same. They try their luck, though I always diss them.
Recently I was tricked into having consensual sex with a guy I barely know. Everything was a daze and I think he might have put a charm on me. He kept telling me stuff that I've no idea how he knew. He claimed that he had visions of his past life and I was previously his wife and he caused my death. I find that so bizzare and I don't believe him. He now says he doesn't want to give me trouble anymore and sends me money telling me to give a better life for myself.
I now hate guys with a vengeance. But I hate myself even more. I feel so ashamed. I don't know why I was so blurred during that incident. I wish I could just die.
Save me from myself